It’s been three and a half months since everything fell to shit. Since mid-March lots of us have been working from home, staying indoors, and doing their best to be a Good Citizen. But now we are halfway through the year, things have started to change. For us in Adelaide at least, anyway.

This week I went back to work. I was one of two people in the office at any given time, but there were quite a few more people in our shared kitchen. The calendar flipped over to July, and I suddenly realised that this year is half done, and so far I’ve spent most of it in my house. Where did the last three or four months go?

I know I’ve rewatched six seasons of Scrubs. I originally started for nostalgia reasons and have come to the conclusion that there’s just no point watching it otherwise, it’s just not that good now and has a surprising amount of blackface.

I know I’ve kept my sourdough starter alive because I’ve baked an ungodly amount of bread. I originally didn’t want to go near sourdough, but when my mum gifted me a baby I didn’t really have a choice, I couldn’t let it die! This lead to me cooking my time away, making bagels and muffins and banana bread and pizza and handmade pasta and focaccia.

I know I’ve spent upwards of upwards of 100 hours playing Stardew Valley. I discovered that I actually quite like playing games.

I know the park near my house really well now. Less well now it’s less than 10 degrees in the morning and it’s raining.

I’ve learned to crochet and I made this whole blanket! I gave it to my Nonna, who lives alone, by dropping it on her porch when I couldn’t see her.

And I know I’ve read much less than I thought I would. But of the books I have read, some have been really great. This one included.

But now things are changing. I’ve been out for dinner a few times and even to a bar. Yet still overseas, and even in a select number of suburbs of Melbourne, it’s another story. I’m experiencing a weird sort of survivor’s guilt and I don’t know what to do with it. I don’t know how long this new freedom will last. But I hope it does.